this sorry is the hail mary to catch by 0hgravity, literature
Literature
this sorry is the hail mary to catch
reading: This sorry - vardeldur
it is not
heartbreak.
it is
hearttwist;
it is tornado
in a hurricane --
the course is
unpredictable at best
metastatic, prognosis?
Look at me --
am I someone
that wants to live
without you?
I.
In the beginning,
nothing made sense.
II.
We entered into a state of delirium;
all sanity and reason fled
as startled birds.
III.
We clung to each other in a dizzy space,
a familiar space. Together. Confusion
held comfort.
IV.
Blue purple black light --
Have we seen the iris of God?
Yet we live and breathe and walk.
V.
We run.
VI.
He chases.
VII.
We are afraid of why.
For anger. For love.
The question of life:
Do we stop or do we keep at this
breakneck pace?
in the next life you were a phoenix
a fiery resurrection
songbird of ash & second chances
when you flew south for the winter,
you made it every time
see for you, the universe was an olympic mountain
jutting out of the ocean, a temple you would never set foot in
an elaborate maze you'd been lost in for too long;
the only love you'd ever known was from the coalfire
of your father's hands in the dark, they were the most angelic
monsters, they were beacons
his mind was the gears of a clock that never stopped spinning
but the light,
the light was a promise to be seen
the fire, a dancing enchanter that never leaves
the future was an echo on t
we came as humans do by successwithhonor, literature
Literature
we came as humans do
[to whomever is left to listen]
and I thought that we could forget that we are giants,
monsters with footsteps that bruise the tender flowerbeds down below
we must realize that to sleep is not to wither in the decomposition
of the soil we try so hard to forget
was here before us, but to dream that this
ground is not the barren dollhouse we have left it to be
these cities are graveyards for the cost of construction,
buildings tombstones for all that should have sprouted
but was built instead, scraping the dreams from the sky like
stars burning out and falling back to earth
nothing grows here anymore
our concrete sprawls
every day has a cool, quiet room
at the center of it.
the walls are light coming and going.
the window is an opening
in your memory,
a chapel between moments.
the edge of your life curves there
and you become more of what you have always been.
the distinction between
falling and rising
is lost in the space between particles
and everything grows.
5.88 trillion
color-copies
of what lies
between here
and the water:
weather-broken
pine trees,
rain-kneaded
dunes
and
the edge of a city
that pouts
on the county map
like a stab-wound--
where the century gets notched
one year at a time
into the calf
of a stone hero
in the park
and a single ferrari-red
flower petal
scatters in the wind
multiplied a thousand times
like a lone ray of light
broken through a prism of spray,
like a mile
repeated
imperfectly, thank god,
over and over.
I reach the water
and its wordless
thrashing
creates a vacuum
which I fill with
random confessions—
beauty is what
makes us
tell the t
I shall die with words like minnows
still attached to the strings of my heart,
swimming like sperm, jostled and mad,
bearing the prologue of life, the opening bars,
the glorious first drone of the chanter
that moves blood in the way of volcanoes to war,
to explosion, the crepuscular exuberance of dawn,
these minnows attached to the shimmering lines.
But the little darlings get confused in the shadows,
panic when light breaks above the tiny Os of their heads,
while the heart-pole bends
like the long slim fingers of a willow,
down, pointing down to the cress-edged creases
and rocky seams of the cold water shallows
that only the babies